Darling I Love You Like A Photo Negative Of My Refection.

All I can think is how selfish I am as I stare into the mirror and scrub at the tear stained cheeks. I promise to be there for you but I'm not even reliable to my own thoughts. I'd give my soul to posses what it takes to be half the person you are. I take first place in the pagent of disappointments and fakes.

Pity Idiocy....AKA me.

I love you like I'll never love anything else. You are the only thing about this town that keeps me going in the middle of the night when I curl up and cry my self to sleep. I cant bear to hurt you but its my only talent. I tried to tell you who I was but you chose to remain blissfuly ignorant behind rose tinted lenses. I'll never be who you think I am. I'm dead weight but you just havent noticed it yet. All I can do is think straight. I've lost everything that I thought ever mattered and all im left with is the consequences of my actions. Ive eaten my own words enough to feel ready to explode. I've made my bed and now I cant get out of it.